Posts Tagged ‘Whinge’

I’m a hazard to myself.

An extract from an email I wrote to a friend yesterday -

I’m feeling pretty damned lousy myself right now. I’m just so confused about my life right now and I just .. hurt? I don’t know.

I’ve finally got a job that I want, I’m going back to NYC and marrying Nick, and I still don’t feel happy.

I never thought I’d live this long – so I never really bothered to make plans. I don’t think I ever really thought I’d move to Sydney, because I don’t think I thought I’d be alive that long. Now I’m like ?? What do I want? I don’t think I want to stay in Darwin, but I don’t know where I want to be .. I guess I’m realising that even in Sydney, I’ll still be me … and that’s half my problem. “Wherever you go, there you’ll be ..” or whatever it is *sigh*

I think I’m just getting itchy feet – I went away pretty much every two months for the past two years, and it’s getting to that point again now (this weekend will be two months), and I just want to get away .. but we’re not going anywhere til May

I’ve spent my whole life running from who I am .. and now it’s catching up with me…

This morning I woke up with a kink in my neck, a headache – and I thought it was Thursday.

Brilliant start to the week.